The closer I get the more complacent I get. As maternity leave approaches I feel more and more like whatever will be will be with regard to work. I still wake at night thinking about things that need to get done, worrying about bills that I haven't yet paid because I'm such a procrastinator, and talking myself back to sleep......after hours of being quasi-awake. But eventually I convince myself that whatever will be will be and nobody is going to hate me because of it. I'll just take what comes and do what I can with it. It's a pretty peaceful feeling.

Have been praying about guidance for managing expenses over the next couple of months while H is not bringing in any income and I am already behind on so many bills that I can't even tell him. I've been considering taking my mom up on her offer of taking a loan from her - she'd take it on her unmortgaged house and I'd make the payments - to get us through. I know she loves to help in that way but I have been resistant. I don't like to ask her for financial help because it's not as if she's wealthy, besides which I'm a grown up and should be able to dig out of my own messes.

SO! With that said. Something popped into my head today to help me through - without having to bring in extra income OR sell anything. Anyway I feel good about the plan. It could work pretty well to get me through until H is bringing in income and picking up more of the financial slack, then my own pay can go towards really catching up. I do hate having to catch up every summer though - that sucks.

Who knows, maybe our property and the business will sell in the mean time and we'll be in the clear all the way around. What an amazing feeling that will be.

7 weeks left. I can not wait. I'm so very very very very excited about having 12 weeks off! I wish I could get equally excited about getting the baby's room ready lol.

Peace ~ out