Dyin again

I know that's not how you spell it - but it works phonetically. How dumb is that? I can spell phonetically but can't spell die-ing????

I'm drowing in my over abundance of work and am afraid that I'm finally going to go under and not come back up. Somehow there might be some relief in that....if it weren't for the expense of owning a house.

Today was not nearly as bad as yesterday as I was coming to work. It wasn't total despair I was feeling - just sort of a general sense of "whatever". But yesterday, in the second half of the day, I was really up and ended up staying late at work to make sure I got through a bunch of things. Yesterday also afforded me the opportunity to send a list of my true work responsibilities to the 2nd in command. It was not totally un....what's the word for "not requested"? Anyway. There was a purpose beyond just saying hey look at all that I do!

Maybe that helped me feel a bit better. UNSOLICITED - that was the word.

Soooooo it was a long night but I remained well caffeinated and got through it just fine. Wrapped it up with a 10 pm swim in the pool at the perfect temp of about 83 degrees. Then I had dinner. In that order.

OH! My 11 year old daughter shaved her legs for the first time last night. I told her she could this year (6th grade) and today was going to be gym so she decided last night was the night. Nevermind that she wears shorts and skirts every day anyway - somehow gym made it different. I did not realize how hard it is for the first shave - not sure why but it takes forever to get all that baby hair off. She's still a bit patchy - but it's blonde so not too noticeable. It doesn't help that we still don't have a shower - and we don't have a tub. So she sat on a cabinet next to the utility sink in the basement. Memorable?

I cannot function in chaos. Work is chaotic and my focus shifts with each incoming call or visiting staff person. Then I end up with stacks of unfinished stuff that comes back to bite me in the ass later. At home there is not yet a place for everything so everything is everywhere and it's making me edgy. I cannot relax. I go from one chaotic dysfunctional environment to another....over and over and over.

Even though I started back in mid-July, I still have not gotten past two full chapters of the "7 Habits". I bet that's due to not practicing the 7 habits. But dammit if they would just list the 7 habits and tell me on what page they talk about each of them, it would be much easier to get through!!

Starting to ramble. I'll shut up now.