Generalities

I am trying very hard these days to remain focused. Focused on the things that matter the most and those are home, family, work, education.....real life. It has been fairly easy to avoid the pc since I rarely have time to do anything personal on it. Work is non-stop - in fact I've cancelled a three day conference trip because I just have too much to do to be away from the office or family for three days. It was a huge relief.

Life is busy as we're still plugging away on the house. Things are slow since our lender - a close friend - is new to the industry and I think i know more than she does. But I'm confident that it will all work out. Seems we have a new paper to sign either for the realtor or the lender every day.

We're cleaning and packing whenever we can so that when the day comes we are well prepared. Still trying to sell the extra car. Just vaccuumed it out and then took six kids to the beach so needless to say it needs to be vaccuumed again. Siiiiiiiiigh....

I'm back to my Thursdays at the beach - except for this Thursday since I was planning to be away. My mom's covering that day.

Work is just all consuming - but I really refuse to do it outside of work hours. I mean if they want to give me a raise and make me salaried.... it would be expected. If they want to leave me as a dept. of one, keep piling work on me, and leave me hourly, then they can catch all the crap that falls off the table when there's no more room.

Thinking about things, or engaging in things, that are outside of the realm of general reality - that is to be chatting or blogging or e-mailing with people that I've really never met seems farther and farther from me. Those people who mean something to me - who have proven themselves to be truly great friends - I keep e-mailing them and including them in my life. I don't really care what anyone says but I think that's real - as real as any friendship that a person might develop. Otherwise it holds no interest for me. I don't think I could force myself to chat and actually enjoy it at this point. Even blogging is almost a chore.

I'm right now changing the subject because I am overhearing someone in a meeting w/my Director. It seems like it might be something like an efficiency study - determining who does what, how well and, with what level of expertise. Hmmmm...

ok that's all I have the brain for anyway.

Peace,
j